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I want to be able to show you who I am...

The "real me", so to speak.

I want to share everything with you...

All my dirty secrets and little desires.

Why is it so hard to just let go?...

Let all my barriers slip away.

I keep everyone at arms length...

And I have no clue why!



Maybe its because I was once hurt so bad,

And I was never able to get over it.

Maybe to keep me from getting heartbroken,

or to not get attached to anyone.



One can never know one's own mind!

I'm sitting in a crowded room,

Filled with hundreds of people.



Hundreds, In yet Not one notices me.

I am completely and utterly Invisible.



I feel so alone, so empty,

It hurts me...



I catch gfragments of conversations,

Wondering why I can't be part of them.





Of course I find some interesting,

But I'm not jumping at opportunities to include myself.



Why is that?

Why Am I like this?



Why Can't I be like everyone else?

=*****

We're kissing softly,

Pressing lightly against one another.

Even though it's soft,

You pull away slightly,

Allowing me to catch my breath.

I lay my head against your chest,

waiting for my heart to take it's normal rhythm,

Smelling your sweet scent in the process.

I'm not quite done,

But you start to kiss my face.

First my nose,

& then my forehead.

After that, both my slightly flushed cheeks,

And then the base of my throat.

Finally, you resume to my lips.

The kiss deepens,

as you press me against the wall.

I'm trapped here,

Not being able to escape our embrace,

Even if I wish it.

Though I don't, because I've never wanted anything more!

I twine my fingers in your soft hair,

Holding your face to mine.

I'm lost in complete ecstacy,

Letting my self control slip away.

Siddenly, I feel a sharp pain at my neck,

But it's gone as fast as it came.

i lose myself even more,

As my blood flows into you.



I'm too weak to hold myself up any longer,

So you lift me up as if I weigh a feather,

And you carry me through the deserted london streets.

I see you looking down at me,

And your beautiful smiling face is the last thing I see

As I drift into unconciousness!

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armandbeauregard
22:54 Dec 06 2009

You should publish these poems! They're excellent.

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I can't live this way any longer.

I'm living such an empty, lonely life.



I walk slowly on the frozen lake,

Comtemplating things.

Whether I should keep on trying,

Or just give up.



I've made my decision,

And I deliberatly walk on the thin spots.

I'm no longer affraid,

And I swiftly fall in.



The cold doesn't bother me.

I've been so cold for so long, I don't even feel anything!

The dark doesn't phase me either.

I've lived too long in the dark.



Although I want it this way,

I try going up for air,

Only to find that it has already frozen over.

I am trapped, and I let myself go.



But then,

All of a sudden,

I hear the Ice smash,

And I find you pulling me out.



Now, for the first time in a long time,

I don't feel cold and lonely.

The dark leaves me as well,

and I can finally see.



I have awakened...

because of you!

=)

I stare out my window,

Into the dark, starry night.

I hear the crickets chirp,

Feel the cold wind against my face.

I look out, To see you leaning against a tree.

Watching me? As I watch you?

Or rather FOR you, for I know not of your arrival.

You always appear out of nowhere!



I beckon you to my window,

I wish for your closeness.

You step away from the tree, then are caught between whether you should stay,

or come to me.

I can see that you want to,

but your hesitant.

It takes you half a second to think it through,

and you step back to that tree.

I know I shouldn't feel rejected, that it's better this way, but the tears fall anyway.

I also know that it's not your wish to stay away,

but I torture you unwillingly,

Not being able to silence my sobs.

I'm just a silly little mortal, after all.

Our emotions run away with us.



But oh, do I wish to be part of your world.

I even dream about it, frequently.

Why is it so impossible?

If you wish it half as much as I, why impossible?

Can't you make it so....

I listen feircly to the pounding of your heart,

Intently to the flowing in your veins,

The rich liquid running in both.

My mouth waters uncontrollably.

The thirst is unbearable.

I am completely and utterly famished.

I havn't fed for some time,

And I am running out of strength.

You smell irresistable.

I can't wait any longer to feed.

I want to taste and consume you!

The scars from before turn grey,

Becomming less noticable.

No one asks me about it anymore,

Thank goodness.

But then I hurt some more,

And I have to make new ones.

And so I make one last cut,

Not knowing it's the one that ends my life.

I've cut too deep, you see,

And the blood is flowing in the white bathroom tub!

I can't stop the bleeding, so I just let go.

I drift off into the oblivion I know nothing of,

Hoping that I'll wake up.

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PrayForPlagues
22:23 Aug 22 2009

deep....i like lol

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PrayForPlagues
23:50 Aug 22 2009

can i have a yahoo or msn, im out of sends

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